saying sorry

把自己放的最底。。。
i was thinking...how many sorries can 1 say in a day...so many that u cant count...how is tat possible...working in this line....i did...every shot change...sorry...can this...sorry artist need this...tat...today got super upset with a part-timer...IDIOT! Walk out on set on us....wanted crew to kneel down and say sorry!

SIAO!

was super upset with it...remind me of how much this line is worth...haiz...i really need a break...gonna breakdown soon...i believe...crying is..breakdown le la...weak...felt like smoking sometimes...always think...ppl take a break to smoke when tired...stress...then we non-smoker leh? can only continue...continue...if close eyes rest...felt bad...like not working...

maybe...i shd...jus smoke....haiz....tired..rm...smoke really help?....haiz...i doubt sooooooooo...recently jus finish incredible tales...had to light up a cig...nearly...had to smoke it to light it...but i didnt...wanted too...but...the smell of tat cig...is....EEEEE.....but i know got this cherry smell one...smell not bad...
~-~

haiz...

someone ask me before...why i put myself so low...i couldnt ans...cos...i also dunno...i guess...if i dun...how to survive in this line...but its not really low wat...but we are...the lowest in the crew ma...

someone else ask me...why i no longer have tat passion i had like i start work...mmm......haiz...cos of the way this industry is working....force me to let it go....
i dun wan to work le...
jus wanna rest...

my back and shoulder aches....

haiz...

next project...police n thief...Pls...be the last...